It's hard to explain

It's hard to explain
When two feelings collided and
starts smashing and crashing the heart
It's already empty and now
shattered like fragile broken glass
In less than 3 months i'll be the wife
the woman to love and to be loved
by the most beloved man on Earth
but there's time when i found myself
to start derailing
When the recent lost keep locking up
each one of us in prison named the sorrow
How can I smile when i can see them crying in pain?
How can I be too selfish for my happiness
when I can see them hurt inside there?
Flashing back the good old days we had together
creates tears flowing on our cheek
Though we still can feel the smiles and laughs we had before
Yes. It's hard to explain.
People symphatize but they don't feel us.
Thanks but no thanks.
I shall keep running away and i promise i'll coming back soon.
Soon...but don't ask the exactly when.

p/s: Thanks dearest. Keep holding on. I love you.