2014 - More to Expect

Eh? Minggu depan nk masuk 1st year anniversary lah! Minggu depan? Ahad ni lah! 2 tahun berkenalan, setahun perkahwinan dan berpuluh-puluh tahun lagi utk dihadapi bersama, InshaAllah. Alhamdulillah pahit payau manis, masam busuk wangi, nangis sedih ketawa semua berjaya dihadapi dengan jayanya (pada perasaannya lah.hahaha). 

Another 3 months to go to end 2013. Bila toleh belakang sebentar, rasa mcm tak percaya Tuhan dah sediakan macam2 rencah hidup yang kena kami blend bersama utk dapatkan rasa masakan yg ehhhmmm... kdg2 sedap, kdg2 inedible (kot!). Tapi bila toleh ke depan semula, rasa malu pula dengan Tuhan sbb Dia bagi juga ganti bila kami tersalah blend rencah dan perasanya. AllahuAkbar. Allah Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang. :')

Jadi, ayuh bangun! Baki masa yg tinggal ni jgn disia2kan. Rugi jadi manusia tak berwawasan. (Ecewah!) Lagi rugi jadi manusia lupa bersyukur dan bersifat redha. InshaAllah menanti 2014 dgn penuh harapan dan cahaya lebih terang di samping tetap bersedia dengan apa jua ujian Tuhan yang selanjutnya. Allahu rabbuna. Bismillahi tawakkaltu 'alla Allah. 

Sekilas yang menarik 2013:

1. Senyuman sebuah keluarga yang hidup kembali.

Semua.

2. Buah hati kami suami isteri dan seluruh keluarga.

17w. Skrg dh masuk 22w. Dah mula prektis boxing.

3. Rumah idaman 2014.

Curi insta laki sdri. hiks!

Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan. InshaAllah! Senyumlah ahai cik mek molek! :)

p/s: teringat zaman bercinta dolu2. Love you, Boboncet!

Zaman Boncet mengorat! Suweet kan? :P

Rezeki itu hak Allah.

After 3 months, it still nothing.
No news. Just blank.
People advised me, others waiting years by years
yet Allah still won't give
People added, others have to adopt
yet Allah destined they won't have them.
Indeed, they smile. And they celebrate the happiness.
Am I being ungrateful and/or not believing Allah's will?
Astaghfirullah al 'azim...
When I am ready and accepting, He is testing me again.
People start talking about me. ME. Not US.
And that's sometimes tears me down.
I watched family type movie and never fail to cry.
It reminds me of all things that had happened previously
and this blanko-thing.
And the husband noticed that.
"How fragile you are, Love."
I am sorry. I just can't resist this emotional feelings.
It just happen.
I know there are many other people being tested even harder than me.
But when I tried to change the destiny and rearrange everything
Things just can't be even better.
"Without Allah's will, nothing will happen. And that always comes with reasons"

Relax. Calm. Breathing. Do the works. Let Allah do the rest. And SMILE. He needs that.

Favorite Quote

"People don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care." [Saifulislam,2012]

Misi Besar 2013.

Selepas apa yg telah ditakdir berlaku awal tahun ini, sekarang sudah move on utk Misi Mega 2013.

Officially launching the "Misi Dec 13" and "Misi Sep 14".

Ternyata, perkahwinan 2012 sedang mengajar banyak erti hidup. Erti cinta, pengorbanan, kesetiaan, keredhaan sedang dlm ujian dan pemerhatian Tuhan yg Maha Esa. Semoga Tuhan izinkan 2 misi mega ini terlaksana.

Rezeki itu hak Allah. Dengan peluang dan ruang utk usaha yg telah Dia buka seluas-luasnya, mari menyimpul kekentalan diri!

Allah telah menetapkan takdir. Dia merancang. Kita juga diberi peluang merancang. Jadi berusahalah. dan sesungguhnya, Allah Maha Mengetahui dan perancangan Allah juga yg lebih tepat terbaik. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Ya Allah, aku mohon bagi kami panjangkanlah umur kami dlm iman yg utuh, kesihatan tubuh badan, kekuatan akal fikiran, dan kesetiaan tak berbelah bagi antara kami suami isteri. Berilah jalan keluar dan penyelesaian bg setiap lorong gelap yg kami lalui dan simpulan masalah yg Kau takdirkan utk kami. Semoga jalan hidup kami dipermudahkan walaupun dlm 1001 ujian cabaran dan dugaan dari-Mu. Amin ya Rabbal 'Alamin.



***Muhammad faiz bakal mencecah umur setahun 30 Mac 2013 ini. Arwah Maryam juga sudah setahun pergi meninggalkan kami. Semoga Allah mudahkan juga urusan Maryam (jannatul barzakh inshaAllah), kehidupan anaknya dan kami semua. Ameen.***




Wordless Wednesday

Dengar sangat kata orang.

Muslim's Show - Consultation

Ikut hati, mati.
Ikut kata, binasa.
Ikut Allah, selamatlah!

Boleh nak dengar pandangan orang. Tapi, jadi manusia biar rajin banyak. Setiap apa yang orang kata bukan untuk ditelan terus. Kunyah kasi lumat dulu baru telan. Nak lalu tekak pun tak tercekik. Nak lalu perut pun senang hadam. Nak lalu nyahtinjaan utk pembuangan pun senang lepas. 

Iman, ilmu dan kewarasan akal perlu selari. InshaAllah yang lainnya, Allah uruskan.

19 Januari 2013. I lost the baby.

Nothing much to say. I lost the baby. That is real. That is the fact.

Sad. Regret. Stress. I am complete insane if I said I don't feel that. TIPU.

Nevertheless. Alhamdulillah, with the iman of the thinnest as the onion's I can feel Allah is always beside me. A true companion. Affectionately. With the tears all nights. The sadness all day along, hidden in a fake smiles. I manage to send my message to Allah. And indeed HE heard mine. Sunnatullah, HE took the baby. But HE actually is giving me a bunch of loves that i get from the people around me. Parents. And families. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Ya ni'mal mujib (3x).

Recovering I am. Supports I called forth. A shoulder to lean. And a pillow for rest.

Ibu and Babah's love

Our dearest

I am suppose to be in my 8++ weeks of pregnancy. But the baby only 5 weeks in size. Doctor gave another 2 weeks to see the progress. If Allah's will and everything ok, alhamdulillah. If not, abortion is a must. 

Nothing in this world is ours. All are Allah's. Dia boleh bagi semua ni dan Dia jugalah boleh ambil kembali drpd kita hambaNya yg lemah ni. Above of all, miracle can happen.

Teringat pesanan Prof Muhaya:

     "Siapa kita untuk memaksa Allah memberi kita zuriat. Bersihkan hati perbetulkan niat apa kita mahukan anak? Jika dgn zuriat kita berniat mendidiknya menjadi hamba dan khalifah Allah yg terbaik, inshaAllah Tuhan akan permudahkan. Elakkan berniat membangga diri dan menunjuk2."

Submit all and let Him do the rest. Bimillahi tawakkaltu ala Allah.

New life. New Beginning.

2012 left us officially.
The cries, laughs, happy and sorrows, hurts and heals, all had been collected in the 2012 diary.

Being proposed by a stranger whom now i called husband. The man whom i love most. New family new faces.
Being left by beloved sister whom now we cherish her baby. The cries that won't stop.
New career improvement with lots of networks and teamwork upgraded. New experience working oversea.
New improvement in family relationship. From sourness to sweetness. Rebinding.
Little sister's graduation and new employment. First time being apart from my shadow.
Health condition dropping down. More visits to doctors.
Living alone and now two.
.....and lots more that aren't able to be explained here.

2nd day 2013;

Restructuring. New employment. New job role and hoping for more career improvement.
From two becoming three. Awaiting the presence of our sweetheart. New family member. After Aidilfitri inshaAllah.
Hub's career stability and business improvement.
New house, new home, new living environment.
.....and of course with lots of Allah's plan for us.

We plan, Allah plan. And verily, Allah is the Most Ultimate Planner.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Memulakan 2013 dgn langkah lebih teguh dan lebih kuat. Bersama semua insan tersayang dan yg akan terus diingati.